YAY ITS STARTED

WEll PAC fans its finally come to me picking a fight with the Americans. If you want to follow the facts that i am putting out then go to http://boards.swirve.com/board.cgi?boardset=politics&boardid=world&thread=38&spec=5569881. This is the forum that i started lol. Follow and become a part of the PAC (Peoples Army Of Canada).
This is the Insurrection day for us Canadians against our fellow Americans.
Follow and Learn.

Go and learn.
Insurrection
General of PAC

Well i should Update this

Well P.A.C fans i have a confesion.......... Not really but i thought it would be funn to say that lol.
Well i dont knwo if i ever said this but i will becomming published with my poetry as soon as i find out what needs to be done to make it better lol.
I really dont know if i want to make people pay for something that is supposed to be enjoyable. But then again i could do it so that i could give money to the local Library. Really i would but i dunno what i should do with it.

Well other then that i should add some links to this here blogg lol
http://xbrokenangelx.sheezyart.com/
http://www.sheezyart.com/view/362621/
http://obrokenangelo.tripod.com/index.html
These are all by a friend of mine Heather
and this is by my GF Shaunessy
http://www.piczo.com/shaunessy
there will be more comming but i dont know when lol
well till later sports fans
im Out
Insurrection

Am i Really That great

I know i know what she will say " Would i Lie to you???" well i think that she would just on this one subject. The fact is she thinks i am a God in bed. I really dont think so i just think that i am average and i dont really want to disapoint. im not saying that i am bad at what i do but im just saying that there is no chance in hell that i am as good as she thinks i am.
It could also be the fact that i know what i am doing too. Im not good but i know what i am doing. And also that everyone else just plane sucked at what they werer doing so she has no one else to compare to in this field.

Its also not that i wish she would stop saying this, on the contrary i want her to continue. It helps make it seem like i am this big all mighty God in bed. i just want her to realize that when we so what we do (yes i dont know how many people read this and who they are so do what we do sticks.) I just make sure she feels the same way i do or better. I am a verry considerate guy when it comes to that so you know what i mean. Really i dont think you do but what am i to do about it. I really wish that she would just say how good i really am not how she thinks i am. Well anyhoo i am off cause the teacher is comming so later people.

Just a short note..... or is it

Hey P.A.C Fans,
Well again today i have been working alot on things...... one of them is on computers to make them better. Its really not work but you know what i mean. Well tonight is also gonna be a good night. I am goin out with Shaunessy to the movies. We are going to see the new Vin Desal movie. It shuold be funn (Thought i want to see the Ring Two) but you know what happens when your GF cant see anything scary (thought it would mean more cuddle time.)

But ahh well i think eh, There is a sad story on the telly. A lad that was drag racing ran into his own Mom. :'( He is now in prison and his family. well gotta go write more later.

Things Just Keep Getting Better

Well P.A.C fans
I keep finding out how much my GF loves me.... She lets me see insider her blogg at what she just saves as a draft and ....well...... i read something that she wrote.(Well d'uh eh) well this wasnt just something she wrote it is something she felt and it is sure Poetry( i thought i was the poet) Well she is an amazing woman (yes i mean woman ( no girl could do what she can do)) i wish i wasnt so stupid and got throught high school and got a good education so that i could stay with her forever. (im really smart with computers and random knowledge.) If i could i would and i am an i will. There are somethings in life money can't buy........ And one of them is LOVE.
She has many secrets which i am uncovering as time goes by. Althought i can't seem to tell her mine as well as i can get her to tell me hers. She has found out part of my past but there is much she doesnt know and will not know... as not many people know. I wish i could tell her everything but damn it im one stubborn sun of a bitch.


Well anyway, talking today with my english teacher i asked her to look at my poetry. The reason for this is so that i can get it published. My Entrepreneuriship teacher suggested me to do that. My english teacher also asked me to present a few of these poems and our Night of the Arts. I dont know what ones to do but if you could help me decide that would be great. Well i know one of them.... Its not really appropriat but it is in memry of someone that i cared about but never got the chance to say how much i cared about her. But thats another story as im not in a depressed mood and i really dont want to get into one. Well you guys be te judge of which 3 i should do... Just got o www.postpoems.com/members/brian and post replies to the ones you like and i will see if i can do them.
Well im off sorts fans.
Remember
The greatest gift of all is the Gift of love and teh second greates gift is a friend but the Ultimate gift is if you tell someone that you care for them on a regular basis.

OMFG

Fuck fuck fuck. This is fucking torture...... I mean i cant do anything to my gf for another day....FUCK her here having a blast doing everythign and anything to get me excited. Come on people wheres the simpathy???????? She says she is sorry but BULL SHIT SHE IS. Come on im a guy she is a girl y the fuck cant i get her ficxed so this wont happen anymore???? I dont mind adopting as i was adopted. fuckin torture i tell you FUCKING TORTURE. I wish i could just take her and just .... hmpfff..... just wanna take her now and lay her down beside me and carress her sweet sweet body. I dotn care anymore what time of month it i si am just gonna take her and rape her. Well im off sports fans.... TTYL
remember incest is a game the whole family can play.

blobs

This is......... askem..... a usless blob that moved in on my blogg dont ask.

Stupid Fuck

Well again i am pissed off. You might know who it is at too... we are having this big argument and well..... he is underestimationg me and my contacts. fred town isnt a safe place if you are a wanted man i hope you know chris. I think you should just move to a little islad were i dont know anyone or some obscure place. or just kill yourself that would be great too. I hate when people under estimate me and my knowledge or contacts. None to pleasent when they hear that i am pissed off. hire a hit man isnt something to take lightly so i would do it myself if i wanted. Well i cant write much tonight because i am tofucking pissed off.
night sports fans
remember
Your only as inteligant as you think you are, but Chris damn your fucking stupid.

My mind in a trap

Well here i am again today thinking about Shaunessy. I swear to god she is all thats on my mind all day and night. I wonder when i will get a break lol. I really dont want a break but i want to be with her all the time. I just dont know thought what it would be like if i was with her 24/7/365 sometimer 366. I know right now i want to be with her but when it comes down to it what will it be like???? Hmmmmm... taking 2 wild guesses. One...... All it will be is arguments and sex......Two.... What i really want for the rest of my life and hers. When i first met Shaun i was young and i liked her back then.... But as a young person i was shy and.....well you get the idea dont you. As i grew up i was friends with her and then it got serious. But before then she pissed me off a couple of times for calling all the time. Now that we are going out i have to beg her to call me. I just love to hear her lovely voice and feel her soft skin. I wish i could all day. I also dont think that i could get mad at her for anything...... and i really mean that. I wish i never did ever get mad at her. I wish i coulda sheltered her from what i can be. which is a monster when you piss me off(i cant be really really inconsiderate.) But most of all i want to shelter her not from my anger(which i think i have a problem with but not so much right now) but from what is going on in her life at present. I wish she would open up to me so i could help her heal cause i know i could. I wish she would trust me enought to talk about her feelings with me (i am a trustworthy person after all..... hey you hear about bob from canada... you will have to keep it a secret thought cause im not supposed to tell anyone.) I am an open person with an Open mind. I am a great listiner and i have went throught or can go throught what is happening. There isn't much i cant relate to.

Other then that sports fans, i will probably get expelled tomorow as i am going to confront someone that pissed me off for the last time. He is from Texas and he knows who he is. I know i might not have been great to him but...well thats the way i was brought up and....well he needed to be toughned up. Like how can a person show up at your house at 11 at night and ask you if you have any pot in front of your father... come on.... then when you say your buisy say aight. Then the next day get all moody on your ass and say your a dick for not helping them get to a certain place. WTF am i a Fucking Taxi. This person has changed and not for the better he has become something that i created but cant controle and i will have to punish myself as i have to try to make him realize what he has done. His life isnt perfect, mine isnt either. But do you see me at 11 o'clock asking you for a drive anywere by just showing up at your door..... I THINK NOT. This has gotta stop. Use and abuse is my worst problem and that has changed people. I tru to stop doing it but it just happens.
Shaun im sorry if i have been doing this to you but well....... i know its my problem and i need help to stop it. I dont abuse physically thought i might leve a bruse from a friendly punch, i abuse mentally. IM SORRY TO ALL THOSE THAT I HAVE HURT THIS WAY. It is just my means for survival. Now that Shaunessy is in my life i hope that will change as i notice i have stoped doing that alot and now only do it occasionally. Thought occasionally is still to often. I LOVE YOU SHAUN and i want to spend my life with you. But i will only be happy if you forgive me for any transgressions i have made in the past. Im strong on the outside but as to keep up other people(one good thing about mental abuse is i can use it for good too.) But on the inside i am hurting more then anyone else i know. Physical and mental pain from others is nothing compared to teh mental pain i put myself throught, My mind is that of someone who has lived a full life while my body is that of a fit 25 year old. At 17 i dont think i should know all the horrors in life as well as taking part in them. I am a killer on the inside, give me a gun and i will shoot. No Questions Asked. No remorse i will have for those who hurt me or my family, friends, or Shaun. During Before or after. Nothing will calm my soul untill all have been avenged by the maiming of those involved or the death. I wish i could write happier thoughts but this is the way i am. My mind is like a trap, you gotta watch what you step on. Hopefully its not on my bad side.

Sorry to those people involved

Hey P.A.C fans
im gona do something that is verry rare for me to do....."I AM GOING TO PUBLICALLY APOLOGIZE FOR WHAT I HAVE SAID IN LAST NIGHTS POST!" im sorry to those who were involved. I know you dont mean to be like this. But you know how busy life gets with Graduation comming up work and Bf's.im really sorry.....i went a little overbored but not to overbored that i would ruin a friendship i hope. I still care about you guys and i really dont want you to change the way you are. Thats Y i love you right. Things couldnt be stopped. What i did was unthinkable yet what someone else did was just plane TABOO. but that is not for me to say
well i must be off
later sports fans
remember When lifes got you by the nutz then you just ask it to squeeze harder.

Stupid fucking people

Yes some people are stupid fucking people. You know the ones.....usually American..... but here in Canada we have alot of them too. I hope you are following me on this and its starting to piss em off again and again and again.
Hippocrits. Yes everyone is one of those so called mentioned above. Nothing pisse me off more then someone saying..."I will never forget my friends(after you talk about it for 3 hours and one of their friends do it to them.)" Well it has happned to me and i was stupid enough to believe that..... and once again im the one fucked seriously. Walking down the mall.. you see that friend...."we havnt done anything in a long time(well d'uh) why dont we do something sometime??" Of course i would have to be the one to say "YEAH" and then a month later still nothing. I dont think it helps that i had a... well not a long term but since i knew this person........ crush. Still do but i have Shaun and that is more then i deserve for being the selfish bastard i am(really i am a bastard.) Then someone walks in and says hey i wanna screw this up.
he dont know me theat great he did get to know me because i was being the nice guy and helped him get together with my Crush. BIG MISTAKE. What happens then well he goes out with her and after spending alot of time with them seperatly and together, through thik and thin, they forget all about me.... Unless i make a point to go and see them at work or they see me at work... never "Hey Lets Hang out together sometime."
People in general Piss me off. I really like that couple and they sute each other but you know what dont be fucking Hippocrits and forget about someone that took the time to listen when no one else would. Not to forget the person who did something thought he really didnt want to.I am Happy at the moment with Shaunnessy, and i know these two are also happy. But I am a Fucking Moron. Not to mention they also made plans with someone for New Years after i made plans with them. Didnt piss me off but..... sounds funy......but.....They didnt invite me. I introduce them to this person and they still forget about me. Part of me thinks they dont wanna even be considerd my friends. Thought i havent also been the greates friend to them but the whole thing is i was introduced to them......i opened my home to them..... shared my life with them... i listned to them.... i helped them. All i asked in return was that they would remember me when somethign is going on. To keep in touch.. To keep what we had before alive . I reallyt can't believe that it has come down to this. I wanna talk to them but i have to talk to them face to fac or they wont understand what i am going through. Going from a close confidant to garbage on the side of the road ...... That just sucks.
Well i dont have anymore bashing to do tonight not that it was bashing cause everyone is a hippocrite.
Remember
The diffrence between fiction and reality is..... Fiction has to make sence!

Shit i shouldnt do this ever again

P.A.C fans i got some interesting news... I finally did it...... i stayed up all night and watched anime. This will be a great thing because shaunessy is comming over ....well......today. Its gonna be a great time had by all and i will prolly sleep while she does stuff on her blogg and what ever else she can think of lol.
Damn i still got a long time bfore she comes over but ahh well i think i will managa lol.
well off fer now
Remember
Stupid people do stupid things.... But smart people do the stupid things smartly.

I Love Her so Much

Well P.A.C fans i never thought this possible..... but tonight i just fell in love deeply with my gf.
When i say deeply i mean if i could right now i would ask her to marry me. Thats how deep. None of this bullshit I Love You's, or I Will Never Harm you.... This is the real deal. It dont come with a toy like a happymeal... It comes with a commitment to your significant other. I hope to God that she will always be there with me for me and think about me. I know there is alot of shit going on in her life at the moment, but i am helping her throught it all. Wow i never thought this would ever happen to me.... I mean come on.... a Good looking(hott) 17 year old guy, falling in love??? Its unheard of. I mean WoW. When i think about it i really never amounted to anything. I played Baseball and became the best in the legue (im not shittin you 4 MVP's in a row against the top teams i mean WOOOOOOOW.) I was in cadetts for a little while and i was the best cadett in my Corps, I am an exelant Marksmen, I help out with the Safe grad for my school...... but that is it. I have been really shitty at relationships. the longest one was when i was 14 and a half till i was 17 and a quater. That was the longest i ever went out with someone and i was manipulative.
I dont want to be like that with Shaun but i just might end up like that again. I really dont want that to happen.... a wise man once told me "If they change for you.. then why not change for them???" I tried changing. But before i met Shaun i went back to the same ol'ways. Depressing to think that i went back. I wish that Shaun would keep me in line and not give in no matter how much i beg and pleed. She is the best.
While watching Shrek 2... yes 2....... it doned on me I REALLY LOVE HER. There is no handbook on your feelings. I mostly talk about mine without feeling them. But when you really fall in love you feel something strange... Like when you first start going through puberty. This feeling is strange and its like thunder rolling across your whole body.
Well sports fans thats all for tonight i think if not i will post more
I LOVE YOU SHAUN
and remember people
Why not take a chance on me im not what you think i am but what you want me to be.
(I will explain that later on)
Lates

Short and sweet

You knwo what the best feeling ever is.................. It swhen someone plays with your hair....mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..... I love it.
Keep it up Shaun.
Lates sports fans
remember
KEEP YOUR STICK ON THE ICE!!!!!!!

How sadistic is my GF??????? I really would like to know

Hey P.A.C fans
Well its me again and i just got this crazy urge....... to find out how sadistic my Gf is. I will come up with a few simple questions that should be short and to the point.
HOW SADISTIC ARE YOU???????? I really dont expect an answer unless she really wants to post one. Not that there is anything wrong with that but...I kinda wonder if she will sing me to sleep then chopp of my head. Not saying that its all bad but you know what happened to Bob from Canada..... well his GF/BF if its Bobette... Sliced his throat from ear to ear and made him drink his own vomit. just reading one of my Gf's bloggs it just got me wondering..... WHAT IF I PISSED HER OFF IN BED???????????
Not that i ever could because i am the amazing pornstar from hell..... Well from earth (i consider it hell untill i take it over muhahahahahahaha) People that are sick and sadistic usually come in two forms...... Sick/Sadistic or sick and sadistic...... What one are you?????????? well i just hope that she is only sadistic because that is the word f the day............ But you never know untill she hauls a 22 on your ass and says bend over and then shoves it up your ass. It might sound harsh for tyhe faint of heart but.... its reality there are just That many sick people out there. thought one of them can stick his on head up his ass... Explain that one Dr. Phill........
Well on a lighter note..... Oprah Is fucking hotttttttttttttttt...... i know i just had to emphisise the hotness of Oprah. I just want to shove my ......... wel you should use your imagination... Which brings me to another point...... WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU THINK OF THIS SHIT?????????
Well i just haull it out of my ass sometimes but other then that ... hmmmmmm........ sex............ I jsut think its funn to make fun of people who have no imagination. Take for example......... Pokemon. Chasing around little animals sounds alot like Steve Irwin and his wfe in Australia.... The only catch is....... YOU GOTTA CATCH THEM ALL...... thought Steve caught one right in the Bag..... you catch Pokemon with a little ball.... Not surprising since Steve has none and Ash does...... Quite interesting since Ash is an Anime character. Another good example is from my Mother land ........................................................................................................................ CANADA. What the Fuck is our current Prime Minister doing with all the money for healthcare?????????? He is trying to be like the Americanos...(American for those who cant understand the OS at the end..) ALl right lets go from free health care to Pay a shitload for a bunch of crap that they inject us with and then shove a tube u our ass. Well i think that our Insurrection time has come... As soon as my army is ready i will Take over CANADA...... THEN U.S.... Give them beer and they will be fine........

Well i gotta go for a little while sports fans
remember ......................
I REJECT YOUR REALITY AND SUBSTITUTE IT FOR MY OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

First Blogg Ever

Hey fans of the P.A.C,
This is my first blogg and really there is nothing really interesting to put in it. Though i will have to say that I love my new group (P.A.C) it kinda came to me in a dream.
If you wanna learn more about P.A.C ( which is short for Peoples Army of Canada( just a lil bit of info) just shout out or later on i will post the web sites address and forums.
Yes people the Canadian culture has finaly resaulted in a Peoples Army. We will eventually gain controle of the Government and we will right the wrongs of our ancestors. (Drunken fools.....)
But in a light note we will not be faciest, communist or try to take over any other country (thought who would believe Canada was invading them hehehehehe.) Though this is probly more then enough information to get people interested in this. we will have our forums up to the public soon as they are now just being created and rules and guidlines are being made.

Well i should stop rambling on about P.A.C, so i will talk about someone important in my life and she dont know how much she is............... Opra. Opra is my idol. I wanna Just .....mmmmmmmm........Opra. lol
No that not who is important in my life. She knows who she is. Shaunessy. I love her with all my heart and i will never hurt a hair on her head unless she is telling me to cut it. I wish i could be with herever moment of every day (which for the past week i have been:)) I hope that i dont distract her from her studies as i want her to gradiate before i do, which will be in probly 2099. Nothing will make me harm her and i promised her to take care of her even if she has to take care of me. No one will harm her mentally or physically, or else i will get them for it.

Well sports fans (Yankes are the best) I have to sign off cause it is getting late and well you know there isnt enought time to sleep in the day so yeah.