I Dont Want To Hurt Her Anymore
I know this might sound off hand but I really dont want to hurt Shaunessy anymore. I know that sounds bad but its true. I never hurt her physically and i never thoght i hurt her mentally but in the end i really did. The whole reason is because i smoke. I know that i shouldnt but i started back before i was 12 and now i am turning 18. Though i agree with her reasoning i just cant seem to stop. I know i am the only one who can make me quit but its just so damned hard and i like a challange lol. My love for her is strong but my addiction to nicotine is stronger. Espessially when i am stressed out (which i quite alot).
Though i agree with her, there are somethings that i dont. One is her attack on it. Im not gonna get into detail but she knows what i am talking about.
Second is her aproch on it. I know what will happen and i know what it is like to loose someone you are close to in an instant.
She underestimates what i have been through. Ive been through what 1 in maybe every 1000 Teens go through. Everything. I miss and still love my cousin Emily though i know that she wont be back anytime soon. A friend of mine was in an accident just recently. Another friend tried to commit suicide. So i think that its not fair that she thinks that she is the only one that has lost someone that is close to them in that past little while. or soon as the case maybe.
I really do love her but the cost of me quitting smoking will in the end come to me not handeling any stress at all and then my own death. And as i said i dont want to hurt her no more. But the cost of not hurting her will end up me hurting her more and more. I really dont know what to do anymore.
Well that is all fer now
I LOVE YOU SHAUN
Insurrection
Though i agree with her, there are somethings that i dont. One is her attack on it. Im not gonna get into detail but she knows what i am talking about.
Second is her aproch on it. I know what will happen and i know what it is like to loose someone you are close to in an instant.
She underestimates what i have been through. Ive been through what 1 in maybe every 1000 Teens go through. Everything. I miss and still love my cousin Emily though i know that she wont be back anytime soon. A friend of mine was in an accident just recently. Another friend tried to commit suicide. So i think that its not fair that she thinks that she is the only one that has lost someone that is close to them in that past little while. or soon as the case maybe.
I really do love her but the cost of me quitting smoking will in the end come to me not handeling any stress at all and then my own death. And as i said i dont want to hurt her no more. But the cost of not hurting her will end up me hurting her more and more. I really dont know what to do anymore.
Well that is all fer now
I LOVE YOU SHAUN
Insurrection
posted by Insurrection at 5:15 PM
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